Just A Day, An Ordinary Day

Wow what a week ha ha. I really don't even know what to say or how to respond to it.

So basically feelings from the past came up and had to be dealt with again on Wednesday. I really don't like dealing with the same thing twice, but it happened and my response? Anger. I know, i shouldn't be getting angry but wouldn't you if the person you fell in love with basically rose you up, tore you down, ignored you, became your friend again, and then all of the sudden started up the old feelings of rising you up again? I would, and did.

I realized as everything was happening, that maybe i wanted it. That sounds bad, but i did in all my selfishness i have in my human body and i enjoyed it for the blindness of the moment that filled me. I guess after not feeling that feeling for so long, i got selfish and took advantage of the moment. Of course i was really mad at myself after and the next day.. but i was also really happy. It like filled me with hope, even though it should be making me even more mad. In all honesty, i probably could marry that person if they weren't doing certain things in their life right now. I am not in love anymore, but i love them. If that makes sense.

But too bad nothing works out for me. They like someone else and to add to the issues, i like someone else. But i can't help but wonder if they did like me still, would they change what they are doing now and have enough control and patience for a real relationship insteaad of this 'benefits' thing? I don't know, i kind of doubt it.. a lot.. ha ha but i guess dreams can always just stay dreams too.

I feel kind of saved though. I've been over this whole 'break-up' thing for almost a year and a half now, but i always had this quiet feeling in the back of my mind making me wonder what would happen if he ever kissed me again or something like that and if i was really and truly over him. Obviously, my question was answered Wednesday/Thursday. I guess i really am okay, i didn't feel the 'sparks' i did from before and i didn't have the great overwhelming feeling of wanting to be with them, only for that moment. The next day i realized the truths about this unhealthy relationship i have with this person.

One; they aren't mature enough to stick to a real relationship, but who said i was? Two; it's probably illegal for me to even talk to him. Three; He wouldn't be willing enough to change for a good relationship. All in all i think he just wants someone there, but not be there with them. If that makes sense. I mean, it's always nice to have someone yeah, but he just happens to take that to the next step. (Don't do that. ha ha )

Well, those are my thoughts summarized. Latah :)

Am I Supposed To Do This?

Lately i've been a jerk i guess. Am i supposed to be like this? I don't get what i'm doing, and maybe it is just me, or maybe it's them. How can anyone ever know?

I hate it when i fight with people or am in an argument with people because i can never stay angry or i can never justify myself or i get in arguments with people who refuse to say sorry first so it's usually me. What if this time i don't want to say sorry first? Will i lose a friend for being stubborn? What is better; having them say sorry and finally change, or saying sorry first and having them never change and go through the same process in probably 5 or 6 days. I can't decide. I really hate it when these things happen, i feel like i'm suffocating.

All week i've felt like i can't breathe and i've gone back under the water when i thought i was above it. Why? I have been happy for the past few months and why all of the sudden i'm like this. I've been on my period before, and it didn't bring me down this bad. What's different this time. Maybe the fact i put myself around people i haven't been comfortable around for over a year, or maybe i have started to realize i probably won't be able to keep the one friend i wanted to keep that i just became friends with a couple weeks ago.

Every day this week i have felt like i've been walking through a fog and like i'm not moving or anything. I would laugh, i would crack jokes, do what i normally do, but i have been spacing out more and thinking to myself more like i did a lot last year. I don't ever want to go back to that stage, but maybe i am.

Blah, this whole fight thing with my friend is really making me mad. I don't know what to do. They haven't and won't change for whatever reason and continue to act like a 2 year old, while i am always being the bigger person and apologizing first. But what if i can't do that again this time? Am i going to lose a friend just because of their stubborness? What am i supposed to do? They say i need to change and that is it my fault. Why can't it ever be their fault? Why can't i for once be the one who gets the easier load because it's what i deserve? I realize i get really moody during these times of month, but i mean really. If you've known someone for like 2 years or more, shouldn't you be used to this? And why suddenly the past few months this sudden need for attention shows and the over-reacting about everything i say or do. I mean really, i can't even step back like 5 inches without being accused of moving away because i don't like them. What am i supposed to do? Am i being rude with not wanting to say sorry this time cause i feel like it's not my fault? Am i being a biotch because i'm tired of playing this game and i'm tired of this 'drama'? If the same pattern or them over-reacting to something small and dumb you do or say, and then they try acting like it didn't happen or don't say sorry and think it's all your fault, would you do keep going with the pattern? Or would you change it.

I realize there is the option of not being there friend, but have you ever been someone's friend that you want them in your life, but they just seem to really bug you? Is that weird? I kind of feel it is.

I don't know. I feel like i'm staring at an open space trying to reach for something that isn't there and that i'm drowning. I hate this feeling, and you know what. i'm going to crush it, but i'm not going to say sorry. I don't think that i need to deal with this. Maybe that is mean, but i think the other side of this is even meaner. But that's just me i guess i don't know what else to say to it.

Ye-up.. i'm done.

But Your Body Language Is Telling Me I'm Not To Blame

Yeah so lately i've been keeping to myself a little bit more, and sticking with a couple of friends more and just getting to know them more. People are so interesting sometimes. They think they are always right and try to prove their self righteousness and in doing so they make themselves just look like idiots. Enough about that though.

So when is it not 'too' far to love someone? How far is someone able to go without being mistaken for obsessed? Is love just an obsession with feeling? And why is it so creepy if you like someone enough to have them on your mind constantly? To constantly be worried about their well being and not if they look good or not that day? When has it been obsession to be worried about their happiness and to make sure they are OK? I really don't think that liking someone and stalking someone are the same thing. Really. Do people just say those kinds of things to bug you? Because they are jealous inside that they don't have someone like that? Is it really that fun to tease someone about it when in reality you could be hurting them? I don't understand that concept at all. So i'll stop talking about it.

Is there one way to get someone to like you? People and things claim that "this is the way to get him/her!" "do you and they will fall in love with you" or give you 'advice' but is this advice really what could help? Everything and everyone is so unique in their own way, so why do people say false claims? Idiots? Do people really want to ruin other's happiness?

So an interesting subject came up today. Anything anyone has done in their life only do it for their well-being and to benefit themselves. Is that really true? I guess it could be if you digged deep enough.. I guess maybe that could be true. People care about other people because they don't want them to die or be unhappy because it would make them unhappy therefore they wouldn't be benefitting unless they did something about it.

K done for now lol

Everyone Wants To Know They're Not Alone

I for some reason think about my life everyday, as in I reflect a lot of my days. What I've been thinking about lately is marriage ha ha. Yeah, i get the fact i'm only 15 but when people tell me that, it's annoying cause i'm gonna think about it anyway so why bother seriously. Anyway!

So I want to marry someone for love of course, but maybe that's a little naive? Just a high school thing? But i want my person to have the same standards i do like not swearing for one and drugs and alcohol are just out and i don't want them to think they are dumb or want to be dumb or don't want to try. Giving up is one of those things i can't stand ugh so it can't be in my spouse. I can't have them be annoying as heck either. If they are ugly i wouldn't be able to stand sadly either. Face it. Everyone judges by the cover whether they want to believe it or not. It's not a selfish thing, it's just human nature to be attracted to something that you find nice. I'm not trying to be a jerk, but this is the fact. You can be in denial all you want.

I sometimes wish i wasn't so picky though because i want to be able to get experience and stuff in so when i DO find the right guy, i can actually make myself look more attractive or act more attractive to him lol. I've yet to find a guy that will stick with me and actually likes me for who i am. I guess everyone is searching though huh?

I could never marry anyone i know right now. Well.. maybe one but that's just because i like him ha ha. But seriously. Yuck is what i mean here, they are all idiots and don't know what they are doing.

Sigh okay what ever just my basic thoughts and what i wasn't too lazy to put in :)

With Every Word You Say Make Me Believe

So lately i've noticed that people don't pay attention to what they do. Why? Why can't they just care a little bit of what they do or say? As i observe people day to day people say things that are really rude and uncalled for or just really sad things that they don't mean and they take it as a joke. As they say them, they look at me expecting me to laugh along and all i can think is, "are you kidding?" but trying to be polite i just go 'yeah'

Don't people realize there are consequences for everything? Can't they just accept it and stop being idiots? K well i guess i'm not feeling so sympathetic for the human race anymore because they really just are idiots and lazy animals.

When i say lazy, i'm meaning like.. lazy in everything. Ev-er-ry-THING. Laziness comes in many forms. Procrastination, not wanting to get the remote, cleaning, rudeness, depression, just everything! Can't you see it? I know i can.

Procrastination is obviously the want to not do things you need to. Not wanting to get the remote is literal laziness ha ha. Cleaning=DUH. Now here is where i explain more; rudeness. Rudeness is often referred to as just mean people. But can it really be just cause someone is too lazy to be nice? Too lazy to give an effort to be nice to people? What if they just expect you to be their friend without trying? That's how i see rudeness sometimes.

Depression is a HUGE tool to be lazy. I hate depression. It's totally choice and people think it's not. Maybe you've got the excuse of "it's in my brain" blah blah blah doctors told you this and that. I don't care! You can still choose! It's annoying that you won't even try to get out of it. People must really like being sad and stuff cause it's what happens when you're depressed. Maybe they like the attention whether they know it or it's subconciously. Whatever the reason, it's dumb and time consuming and life destroying. People need to not be depressed and just accept that bad things happen and live life.

Ookay i'm done rambling on about that ha ha. Anyway, just a thought. Bye

Personalities Are All Different Colors

So.. I don't think people are stupid anymore.. Well okay some people can be really dumb, and i still hate rude people but i mean.. now i just know why i guess or at least i can get a glimpse of why people are like that. if personality is made from experiences and family etc etc, so who is to blame them? We all have our strengths and weaknesses and based on what happens to us is how we grow to adapt to that. So i guess the people that are what bug us, we should see where they are coming from. Maybe they had a bad life or something, i don't want to be judgmental especially in a situation like that cause you never know at all.

The Walls Are Blank, It's Like They're Talking To Me

Sometimes i really wonder who my true friends are.. I just can't stand it.. My mom says that i expect too much out of my friends and maybe that's true, but when i think about it, if i expected any less of them, they wouldn't be a 'friend' anymore.. What can i say? I have expectations, but so does everyone else. Mine aren't very high, maybe i'm just too annoying for people to stand. But i'm not sure. Sure I can be annoying, sure i can be stupid, sure i can be a little slow, but does that make it right for people to hate me? Yeah i don't try that hard to impress people, cause seriously.. why bother, but that seriously can't be it. I've always had such a hard time making friends. i can't make good or close friends at all, not even one. What's up with that? Do i smell? Do i offend? Is it cause i don't like talking about stupid make up and i'd much rather talk about the world and it's issues and beauty? Sigh.. I'm kind of just sulking right now.. this is gonna be a stupid stupid entry lol..

I can't help but wonder if i'm depressed. I get sad quite a lot and sometimes it's so high at a point that i can't stand it or anything.. Even if i was, what could i do? I'm not that strong, i try to act like it, but i'm not. I can be strong for others and help them along, but is someone gonna be strong for me? Can i be strong for myself? It feels like there is a heavy weight on a huge hole inside of me and the weight won't crush the hole so it's hard to breathe. It gives me a headache, and makes me sick occasionally. Blah....

I'm not that depressed i guess cause i'm not sad constantly, but the thought of no friends really depresses me sometimes. I constantly want to cry.. why? I'm constantly hungry, or want to move, why?

Thank Goodness there is music in the world.. I love the Rocket Summer for helping me not be depressed. It seems a bit silly to have a band/artist keep me from being so sad, but it really works for me. Maybe that's why i listen to him constantly eh?

Sigh.. Sigh.. Another sigh.. Bigger sigh..

I'm just depressed, why can't i make friends, not excited for high school it will suck cause i've got no friendsssss, my family idk.. gah.. :(

That's about all i want to type..

Something In The Way She Moves

Sometimes i really wish we could read other people's minds. I wouldn't want to read someone's mind though, that's invading privacy, but i wish this guy could just know what i'm thinking so i don't have to say it out loud (not that i do) and so i can just get over him!

Alright. I am over him but it just bugs me so bad sometimes that he doesn't take me seriously and thinks everything i say is a joke. Sigh.. Right now I'm talking to him actually. It makes me wonder though when we do talk about who he's kissed and how his life is going, why did he kiss me? Of all people he kissed me. I think he just wanted action or something because i am just feeling it is. But I mean seriously.. Why? To be perfectly honest with you, i don't have that great of a personality, i'm not done up like other girls and i just.. have a hard time with things sometimes.

See, he'll never read this so i can say all i want lol. And if he ever does, you made you ruin myself thanks so much (not). Or maybe i wasn't ruined. Maybe i was born? Maybe i was fixed? Who would ever know but myself though right. But i can't even tell for myself so it's useless to even think about it. I am still unsure about everything as ever, i still don't like how my legs look (lol), i'm still stubborn and rude at times, but have i changed? I cannot tell if i have and i couldn't tell you either. I feel as if i have, but in what way? I can kiss better (lolol), i laugh more (if that is possible), and i get better grades than i have before. But what about the things that matter most to me? Am I a better sister, daughter, or even friend? I would hate to be any of those things and be a total jerk. I hate jerks, so why be one.

If i am so much better, if i am so much nicer, if i am so much more relaxed, why does it feel like i'm sinking into a hole so far that i won't be able to climb back out? "They just dig dig dig until they can't get out" good song (Treasures by The Rocket Summer) The lyrics are amazing. People keep digging for treasure, but he stops and knows that his treasure is heaven. How did he get to be like that? Such understanding of what he believes and of himself, i am truly jealous. When did he stop sinking into that black and dark hole? How can i do that? When is it gonna 'hit' me?

Sometimes i feel really old and other times i feel really young. When i feel old i tend to be more.. thoughtful about things? And of course when i'm feeling more young, i'm happier. But how can i retain that happiness? I try and try and nothing ever works. it's like i'm pushing my happy bar more forward and i stay at that for a little bit then fall back and it takes more time and effort to get back to where i barely pushed that bar so each time i push it, it gets farther and harder to reach when i fall back.. If that made sense.

My mind wanders a lot that's probably why i can never make sense of what i'm saying and people don't understand me. I change my mood so often that it seems i'm bipolar, but i'm really not. Why do i do this? Hormones possibly? I've never heard about anything like that, but maybe it is. Maybe i'm just insane. Or maybe this is my obstacle and my lesson to be learned? Who is to know? Only God i guess.

While onto that subject, i had a thought as i was going to the bathroom earlier (yes, the bathroom). What would God do if i had sworn and known what i did but for good reason? What if he was a little bit more human, would he let us be more.. flexible with what we do (as mormons)? What if he was here with us, doing what we do. And i mean God, not Jesus. I love Jesus, he died for us, went through what we did and withstood everything and he still made it through. I still love God, but the what-if's come up constantly. What if i had sex? What if i didn't get married? What if i didn't have kids? I mean seriously, i don't want kids. But we're supposed to reproduce it says, but why can't i just adopt? Because i didn't have kids does that mean i'm not going to the highest kingdom? Just imagining what Jesus went though makes me even more grateful for him. He's like my older brother, but i haven't met him yet. Well, i guess i have but i just don't remember, but i wish i did. He's like the all time hero, i wish they would have superheroes be like that in our world's movies and shows. I can't deny that i love the action and fakeness of it all either (of superheroes we make up) but what i love even more is that they are weak too. It makes me really think about myself when someone has a weakness and i hear about it. What would I do if i was a homeless person? What if i was an orphan? What would i do if i was living on the streets or didn't have the church in my life? What would i do? I can't even imagine myself without Jesus as an example in my life or God, but i can't help but have those 'what-ifs' pop up. I guess it's normal for everyone, but it still makes me think.

Also, another thing that's been on my mind lately. I really hate child abuse. Every time i go to work i see at least 50 parents that i serve food to yell at their kids and when i look at their kids faces it's of pure fright. It scares me to think that people are out there hitting their kids. Their kids have nothing to do with what goes on in their life that happens. I wish people would just see that things happen for a reason and it bugs me that they take it out on their kids. Imagining a child being abused by an angry father just pisses me off. Sexual abuse, physical abuse, emotional abuse, even mental! It's all there and i can't believe it. You can just tell when someone has been abused whether it's been by their spouse, sibling, friend, parents or anyone and what i can't believe is how STUPID people are. They just continue to do it! It's so unbelievably sad. I can understand anger, but uncontrollable anger like that? That's just so wrong. No one deserves to be hit like that or in any way. Children especially though, they have no idea what they are doing. Parents are there to TEACH, not abuse! If you didn't want kids in the first place don't have them! But instead people still have them out of accident cause they can't control their disgusting selves and have the things and abuse them! It's just so sad and pathetic at the same time. Sigh, i'm not making sense again but this is what this blog is for, my blabbing on about things that will probably never change and my hate and gratitude lol.

Anyway, that's just me and my thoughts for the moment at.. 1am lol. Good night everyone and whoever reads this..

Mia

Useless But At The Same Time We're Still Young

Wow.. I never get on here ha ha. I've been surprised with myself lately. I haven't gotten on the computer a lot, which is GREAT! Ha ha!

School is starting soon and can i just tell you that i am NOT excited in certain ways. One of them being that i am growing up! I don't wanna grow up! It seems like just yesterday i rode my first rollercoaster (which was years ago), or my dad was here being a dork-wad in the car or other unimportant things. It feels like time is going by way too fast and i have no time to enjoy being a teenger! Is that wrong?! I'm feelin it is!

I'm also not excited cause of homework. BLAH I hate homework so much. But hey who doesn't ha ha. Another reason i can give you is that i HATE annoying people and i really don't want to meet any more but i will so that's not something to look forward to. Sigh.. When will people realize they just need to shut up? (ha ha)

Anyways. So pretty much, this guy who i thought was my used to be best friend is now my good friend again. Which is good, but i have a hard time seeing things differently from before. He said sorry to me and i don't know i guess it's better now but it still feels weird being around him or talking to him.

Sigh it's just so sad that people have such a hard time getting over things, including myself. It's just one of those depressing things in life, but i can't help but wonder that if we really tried hard enough (hard enough to pass the point of physical pain from it possibly) that we COULD do it. We see people everyday and hear them and listen to them talk about how EASY is it to get over things, yet they never tell us the pain and how much self motivation it really takes to do it. They say it's easier said than done and that's obvious but never details. I wish they could give us details sometimes so it wouldn't be so hard and we'd know what to do in each situation, but if it was the same for everyone life would be so beyond black and white.

His story of why he did what he did and does what he does is just unspeakably sad. I can't believe it. I cried over someone else's love story. How pathetic ha ha. But in all seriousness, why did she do what she did? Why do people do that? Why do they bring someone up and tear them down like it was as easy as ripping a piece of paper? It's just so heart breaking to think about it. Yeah i know, "don't think about it then" right? Ha well if you know me you'd know i have a really hard time 'not thinking' about things i can't figure out. Maybe that's why i see different sides to everything no matter how stupid or sad. But i can't even see it in her perspective. At all. I can't even IMAGINE what she could've been thinking when she tore him down like that! It bugs me SO bad! She showed interest, she flirted like she really liked him and even in a way explained why she liked him. But out of no where she just doesn't like him anymore because she doesn't like how he dates? How he does things? How he is? Because she doesn't want a serious relationship? How is that? Why is such a person who claims to be an open person do that? And then go be a hypocrite and find someone else to be serious with? I don't understand that at all. Maybe i never will. I guess i can see it sometimes if i imagined myself doing that, but reading what he wrote just makes what i 'thought' completely fall out of place.

Bah i'm just blabbing on again and i'll just stop right about now but the fact is: Life sucks, don't sit and ignore, COPE.

Love, Mia

White Crap

Wow. Really sad how i've been doing things lately. Hardly friends, don't get out much, yet i'm stayin true to myself. That's what i'm most proud of.

I cannot believe how awfully stupid some people are when they go on saying "oh i haven't changed" blah blah blah yeah right. Get a life would ya?

If you hadn't changed, you wouldn't get so angry. If you hadn't changed you would've reasoned. Man i hate people.

I guess i can understand why i'm doing what i do and not doing what i don't do. But i still want to believe that i'm here for a reason and that's not to sit in my basement all day. Now, don't get me wrong. I do get out. Just not as often as i had hoped. Maybe once i start driving i will get out more.

So maybe love didn't happen. Maybe i was mistaken. I just wish it had hit me sooner than it does now. In a couple of days this 'clarity' or what ever you want to call it will disappear like a string of the past, gone and never to be seen again unless serached for.

Maybe things aren't what they were supposed to be. But that's the point of it all. It's getting back to where we're supposed to be and to fix it! To figure it out! It's like one giant puzzle and we're hereto solve it. Every day a new piece is put together with another, new discoveries that get us closer to figuring out life's greatest questions. And we all know what those are.

So maybe status here isn't the question. But what is? If getting money and being famous doesn't go far, what will? Maybe the love of another like Jesus taught will. Be who knows. Like that quote from ghandi "be the change you wish to see in the world" well if everyone followed that, well think about people's minds today. Jeez. That scares me. Scare you?

Why can't we just be satisfied? It's like we're constantly needing something whether we know it consiously or subconsiously. Can't spell sorry. But let me think, if satisfaction came so easily we wouldn't have a thirst or hunger for it i guess. So maybe that answers my own question.

Being open minded.. Alright. Being open minded cannot be as bad as people think or put it out to be. I mean seriously, no one is open-minded. We all say we are, but we're not. If we were, things would be a heck of a lot different and we wouldn't argue, we wouldn't have new advances in anything, everything would just be ruined. So in a way, being closed-minded is good. It's just our form of our comfort zone. Some people could lighten up a little bit on race and many other things. But that's not gonna happen. Just do our best i guess.

Definition time. Stupidity=Humans. I hate the fact that we've been here so long, and yet we're not any smarter. Where does that come from? Can't people see that the things we do that are just bad and that it does nothing to help ourselves or anyone around us? Seriously. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

Well, that's about all i want to say for now. Good bye and good luck with the world :)

Mia

Human Stupidity

Alright, i'm finally posting something on here! ha ha ha ha


well, let me tell ya. i'm basically confused about how i look at things. mostly i'm a realist alright, but when i want to think of something one way or do something,i contradict it in my mind with another thing... complicated. -.-'' That probably doesn't make sense, but still. it's pissing me off cause i am having such a hard time choosing a side to go with. Erggg

Well, school is almost out. WOO! well actually, real school is done for me (YAY) and lagoon day and year book day are the last two days of school. WOO HOO!! i'm excited if you couldn't tell. No more junior high and stupid 8th graders!!!! and then in about 3 or 4 years, no more stupid high school kids!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GAH excitement!

Bleh, so boys really piss me off too. Yeah yeah girls in junior and high school are supposed to think guys are annoying every day and change their opinion every day blah blah blah i know that. But yeah, maybe that's what's going on with me, but MAN. I've never really known anyone in this time of me being.. awake and paying attention to things.. pregnant basically and WOW. This BOY at school is a total pregnant woman. He changes his emotion all the time. One day "oo i love you mia!" another "O-M-G just go AWAY!! you are so effing annoying" aw thanks i love you too. Another, this other guy is a total FREAK. Totally broke my heart. It's been half a year now and STILL i'm not over him. how pathetic.

I hate how weak i can be sometimes. If i could, i would just change my being lazy and my being a woman. Of course, i don't like girls cause that's just nasty. But i'd much rather be a boy so i could be stronger, not get weird looks when i do things that boys like to do and act like a total guy and just for once not have people think "okay she's got issues" yeah, i hate make up, yeah i hate dresses/skirts, so what? Does that mean i don't like being feminine at some points in my life? Of course not! I still like to look pretty, smell clean, look nice. I just don't do it in such a way you can't tell who i am, if it's my we're looking at, or so it's hard for me to run away in high heels and so guys think i'm for sale. For sale huh? I'll show you for sale.

Ugh, my family bugs me sometimes too. I really wish things would just go away. But of course, they don't. It's like i've got no control over anything except my own life but why would you kill yourself? I don't see any point in that at all. I mean come on, sure life gets bad but killing yourself? That's a little much. So is doing drugs, or lowering your standards, etc etc etc. I've known enough people to know what kind of erson would do that, how they act, but i've never learned the logic behind all of it. I've never understood the human race, i don't think i'll ever find out, cause seriously. Who does know? ha ha ha.

People are seriously so stupid sometimes it scares me a little bit. I mean, if we could just overcome the 7 worst sins and just LIVE LIFE and be good and not so rebellious, maybe the world wouldn't be as bad. I mean seriously, people starving out there and yet there are those who are FAT, RICH, buy new expensive BIG things everyday and they don't want to spend a dime on the poorer few who were born into that sad state. I wish rich people could switch with poor people for a day just to see what it's like. I'm not saying poor people are all great miserable people cause some people like it, but i'm just saying the people who actually deserve a chance, should well, get a chance! But it doesn't happen. Greed, jealousy, laziness etc etc.

Oh well. Human stupidity. Never gonna change sadly. Oh well. "be the change you wish to see in the world" ha ha ha :)) i love quotes. Good bye :)

Mia