Self Improvement

Okay, so i think i've come to the conclusion that being happy with yourself, everything else falls into place.

I've noticed over the years (since my dad died) that nothing was working out. At all. I had no self esteem, i hated how and who i was, nothing worked out and i was just depressed.

But after the decision i made in 9th grade, i noticed my life becoming more of what i wanted it to be. I chose to not be depressed in 9th grade. I would stop being sad about stupid things, i would stop worrying so much, i would just stop.

I got rid of people who brought me down, i moved on and placed myself in my own shoes, and no someone else's. I made goals for myself, i worked at them.

"Shoot for the heavens, cause even if you don't make it you still land among stars."

That quote has influenced me quite a bit too. I decided that even if i didn't get to where i wanted, all my hard work still paid for somewhere and built another step for me to get somewhere.

I have seen that improving yourself and working on yourself just makes everything else work out for you. And if it doesn't, you still know how to handle the situations a lot better. I love that. I love the feeling of having control. But who doesn't ? It's awesome.

The next step in this scary but exciting process, learning to love and learning to deal.

I think it's great how people find people they like and find out that they like them back. It's great. But scary. I mean, once you know they like you, the trick is to keep them liking you and learning to love them with all you have. It definitely takes time. Most people don't even get passed it. Cause once you've got it down, i think this couple would be ready for marriage, which is another different step and something new to work toward. All of this points towards happiness of course. But what i love, is how possible and real it is and can be if you just try. I love that. I wish more people would realize that when it actually matters.

That's all i've got to say at the moment.