But Your Body Language Is Telling Me I'm Not To Blame

Yeah so lately i've been keeping to myself a little bit more, and sticking with a couple of friends more and just getting to know them more. People are so interesting sometimes. They think they are always right and try to prove their self righteousness and in doing so they make themselves just look like idiots. Enough about that though.

So when is it not 'too' far to love someone? How far is someone able to go without being mistaken for obsessed? Is love just an obsession with feeling? And why is it so creepy if you like someone enough to have them on your mind constantly? To constantly be worried about their well being and not if they look good or not that day? When has it been obsession to be worried about their happiness and to make sure they are OK? I really don't think that liking someone and stalking someone are the same thing. Really. Do people just say those kinds of things to bug you? Because they are jealous inside that they don't have someone like that? Is it really that fun to tease someone about it when in reality you could be hurting them? I don't understand that concept at all. So i'll stop talking about it.

Is there one way to get someone to like you? People and things claim that "this is the way to get him/her!" "do you and they will fall in love with you" or give you 'advice' but is this advice really what could help? Everything and everyone is so unique in their own way, so why do people say false claims? Idiots? Do people really want to ruin other's happiness?

So an interesting subject came up today. Anything anyone has done in their life only do it for their well-being and to benefit themselves. Is that really true? I guess it could be if you digged deep enough.. I guess maybe that could be true. People care about other people because they don't want them to die or be unhappy because it would make them unhappy therefore they wouldn't be benefitting unless they did something about it.

K done for now lol

Everyone Wants To Know They're Not Alone

I for some reason think about my life everyday, as in I reflect a lot of my days. What I've been thinking about lately is marriage ha ha. Yeah, i get the fact i'm only 15 but when people tell me that, it's annoying cause i'm gonna think about it anyway so why bother seriously. Anyway!

So I want to marry someone for love of course, but maybe that's a little naive? Just a high school thing? But i want my person to have the same standards i do like not swearing for one and drugs and alcohol are just out and i don't want them to think they are dumb or want to be dumb or don't want to try. Giving up is one of those things i can't stand ugh so it can't be in my spouse. I can't have them be annoying as heck either. If they are ugly i wouldn't be able to stand sadly either. Face it. Everyone judges by the cover whether they want to believe it or not. It's not a selfish thing, it's just human nature to be attracted to something that you find nice. I'm not trying to be a jerk, but this is the fact. You can be in denial all you want.

I sometimes wish i wasn't so picky though because i want to be able to get experience and stuff in so when i DO find the right guy, i can actually make myself look more attractive or act more attractive to him lol. I've yet to find a guy that will stick with me and actually likes me for who i am. I guess everyone is searching though huh?

I could never marry anyone i know right now. Well.. maybe one but that's just because i like him ha ha. But seriously. Yuck is what i mean here, they are all idiots and don't know what they are doing.

Sigh okay what ever just my basic thoughts and what i wasn't too lazy to put in :)