White Crap

Wow. Really sad how i've been doing things lately. Hardly friends, don't get out much, yet i'm stayin true to myself. That's what i'm most proud of.

I cannot believe how awfully stupid some people are when they go on saying "oh i haven't changed" blah blah blah yeah right. Get a life would ya?

If you hadn't changed, you wouldn't get so angry. If you hadn't changed you would've reasoned. Man i hate people.

I guess i can understand why i'm doing what i do and not doing what i don't do. But i still want to believe that i'm here for a reason and that's not to sit in my basement all day. Now, don't get me wrong. I do get out. Just not as often as i had hoped. Maybe once i start driving i will get out more.

So maybe love didn't happen. Maybe i was mistaken. I just wish it had hit me sooner than it does now. In a couple of days this 'clarity' or what ever you want to call it will disappear like a string of the past, gone and never to be seen again unless serached for.

Maybe things aren't what they were supposed to be. But that's the point of it all. It's getting back to where we're supposed to be and to fix it! To figure it out! It's like one giant puzzle and we're hereto solve it. Every day a new piece is put together with another, new discoveries that get us closer to figuring out life's greatest questions. And we all know what those are.

So maybe status here isn't the question. But what is? If getting money and being famous doesn't go far, what will? Maybe the love of another like Jesus taught will. Be who knows. Like that quote from ghandi "be the change you wish to see in the world" well if everyone followed that, well think about people's minds today. Jeez. That scares me. Scare you?

Why can't we just be satisfied? It's like we're constantly needing something whether we know it consiously or subconsiously. Can't spell sorry. But let me think, if satisfaction came so easily we wouldn't have a thirst or hunger for it i guess. So maybe that answers my own question.

Being open minded.. Alright. Being open minded cannot be as bad as people think or put it out to be. I mean seriously, no one is open-minded. We all say we are, but we're not. If we were, things would be a heck of a lot different and we wouldn't argue, we wouldn't have new advances in anything, everything would just be ruined. So in a way, being closed-minded is good. It's just our form of our comfort zone. Some people could lighten up a little bit on race and many other things. But that's not gonna happen. Just do our best i guess.

Definition time. Stupidity=Humans. I hate the fact that we've been here so long, and yet we're not any smarter. Where does that come from? Can't people see that the things we do that are just bad and that it does nothing to help ourselves or anyone around us? Seriously. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

Well, that's about all i want to say for now. Good bye and good luck with the world :)

Mia