The World

So i was thinking about the world. Ha ha it's pretty broad i realize, but here's what i thought of.

Since the world isn't perfect, we have problems, yes, but if we didn't have these trials to go through and things to experience, would we really have lived? I ask myself a lot why God has bad things happen to His children, but lately i think i've realized that because we are human, we HAVE to have these things happen whether they are good or bad.

The conclusion i've come to is that we DO have a perfect world, but in the normal definition we think of. Perfect in this sense would be that we have the right amount of differing opinions to keep the world at balance, we have enough problems to keep us motivated and keep us in focus on what really matters. Even though these things suck, realize that we DO get over them, cause if we didn't, then yeah i'd be asking myself again why God has these things happen, but as humans we are so strong and get through everything it's amazing! And no matter what happens, life always continues forward and reminds us of that with these trials.

I realized that God has these things happen for a reason. That's my new motto every time something bad happens. After the whole incident with Ryan, i've just realized so much about myself. I never knew that i liked doing service so much for other people and i never realized how hard i could work in school. I mean really, ever since Ryan told me he didn't like me, I've been working my butt off at school to keep my mind off of him (even though that's not a good reason to keep up my grades ha ha) but then it eventually turned into the idea that i WANTED to keep my grades up. I also stopped my bad habit of flirting with a lot of guys ha ha. Before i would also just flirt with any guy to just not think about ryan (jeez, is everything to not think about ryan ha ha ha) and then i just stopped after this whole ordeal with ryan. I think it's because while the event between me and him was going on, my only focus was to just like him and no one else, and just wait for him and do whatever he was comfortable with, but after, since i still had this only him idea, i couldn't like any other guys ANYWAY, and now i've just come to the conclusion that i'm going to just not do anything at all with anyone (like dating) until i am in college, maybe well into college ha when i am over ryan. I think it's going to take me a long time to truly get over him, but i think i can do it.

I think God had this happen because before, i would just get so upset about the dumbest things when it came to ryan and had a really bad habit about guys, but now, i'm just so much better. I don't freak out at everything and i don't flirt with every guy and i think i've actually become more independent, but that might also be because i'm growing up.

I am truly thankful that i met him though. It may sound cheesy, but with all that i've been through, he was usually there for me through it all whether he knew it or not, and it's really gotten me to where i am at the moment. I am so much more happy and optimistic and hard working then i was before i met him.

The world is very interesting. It's also really sad though. I don't like watching people go through the same trials that i had to go through, it makes me sad to know how much pain they are suffering because i had once suffered the same. Sometimes i feel like i know a little bit of what the Savior feels towards us. I wish it didn't hurt so much, but i can only imagine what His pain was.