Love Is A Beautiful Thing

So for the past 3 or 4 years i've liked this guy yeah? And when i say like, i mean REALLY like. It's not that simple "oh he's cute" sort of thing. It's to the point now where it goes "wow, i just realized that everything you do is great even if it's not meant to be. there's not possible way for me to look at you in a gross way that turns me off anymore, i'm passed that"

But really, who are we kidding. Liking someone and loving someone are two different things. I think, that maybe we go into marriages LIKING the person, then as time goes on, you grow to love them. That's one way i'm thinking about it.

Or maybe you first like someone like "oh they're cute" and then as time goes on (notice how love takes TIME) you start to feel more than just the cute thing for this person and realize you love them so you get married.

I can't really tell which one is the.. definition of love, but honestly, is there really a definition of it?

We read stories, watch movies, and hear about how all these characters and people fell instantly in love or after two weeks were like "yeah, i love you, let's have sex." but that just absolutely cannot be true. Everyday there's always at least one girl who tries to repeat what she saw on tv (not counting the sex part) and thinks, "wow, it's been two weeks, i must really love this guy." yeah hun, that's not love. it's called infatuation.

Maybe love is a pattern. You notice finally, after all these years of liking guys and going through so many, you realize that all these guys before 'the one' were just like fading memories of the past, or in simpler terms, you liked 'em for maybe a week at most, found something wrong, then found the next cutest guy. Yeah, it happens.

Or maybe love truly is just a feeling, nothing else. We just make it out to be more than a feeling. Perhaps it's just the warm fuzziness inside' that makes love and it doesn't NEED any back-up, you just know.

But who knows really. I feel like to me, my own true to self and unique style, love is just there. I think, that given time you can fall in love and well, in a way you sort of do just know. But also it's a pattern. You realize you keep going back to this guy, never had your feelings lessen throughough 3 or 4 years, and then BAM it hits you in the face, this realization. I love this guy.

Now now don't get worked up about how young people don't know love. I can definitely see why people say that. Stupid teen girls who tell every boy they like they love them etc give off a really bad impression for the rest of us. Me? I don't do that. I'm pretty sure i'm not dumb. If i was dumb, would i be here? really.

I could be wrong though. Quite possibly this guy just isn't my mate for life, but he is the perfect match for me at the moment. As heart breaking to me as that is, it is probably true.

You see, i think of finding love this way. You have your first love, who teaches you to love, be loved, and give love. Second love, possibly you marry this person and live life until one of you dies. Third love (rare) is when your spouse has passed on, and then you find someone else to learn to love. I mean, humans are born into this world selfish and greedy, what we are here for i believe is to learn to love throughout our whole lives. So therefore, third love can start out as what seems to be just 'wholesome friendship' but it turns to be love.

Love isn't just that romantic hot stuff they show on TV. Third love is a good example of it. Third love, you wouldn't get all romantic with them (well, maybe.) you would just learn to love them and finish becoming the top human potential you were born with.

Ah, love. Isn't it great? Love isn't the source of pain, it's what we cause ourselves. Love is not painful, it never could be. What's painful about this 'process' is what we make ourselves feel when unhappy or unsatisfied.

Happy Holidays.